A lot of times in life, things can seem slow, weird and scary. When I think about where I am in my life presently, I can't help but be mentally filled with curiosity and wonder. The whens and the hows of life always seem to seep it's way into my belief system. The thing is, it's not like there isn't a way out of liberating myself from them. It's that feeling stuck and bound in between the whens and hows of life feel like a never ending magnetic pull from freedom. It has often felt like a constant war that's been hard to win for quite a long time now.
But ironically, while being in the space where the whens and the hows of life seem to have me under an emotional and mental siege, my heart is still burning with passion and purpose. It's the most interesting thing ever. It's as if no matter the circumstance, no matter the bondage so forth and so on, one thing that can't be touched are God's gifts to me. I may not have the whens and hows of life figured out but one thing that remains undeniable, unchanged, unshook is the fact that I am gifted. The fact that I still have a purpose to live out here. Everything else can seem confusing and illogically and difficult to comprehend but my purpose and passion has not changed in life.
I still care and love what I can do. I still care about who I can become. I'm a dreamer who can't stand the idea of letting what's inside me die. Maybe one day I'll look back and realize how foolish I was for allowing the whens and hows of life to intimidate me. Maybe one day, I'll stand in the glory of such a win.
