You vs. Lack

One of the hardest things to do when one is living in lack is to have faith. 

Faith according to biblical definition (NLT Version) is the reality of what we hope for. It is the evidence of things we cannot see. 

When an individual is use to living in lack, that lack causes one to believe that the lack that he/she is living in is the biggest issue. The lack is what really needs to be resolved. Maybe it's not the lack that only needs to be resolved, but it's also one's faith. Even if one may feel like there is no way of coming out the lack that he/she is in, shouldn't faith be the levee that keeps hopelessness, fear and doubt from overflowing?

Lack has become a secret bully to a lot people. Lack has become masked the same way a woman masks her beaten up face so that no one knows that her man is abusive. A lot of individuals have masked their lack with a countenence that wouldn't alarm any one else. They smile when they want to cry. They put on a positive attitude when feel like they ought to be breaking down. They sleep when they want to hide it. 

The bible says that faith without good deeds is useless (NLT version). However you may find yourself in lack today, I hope you find a way to do something about it. I hope the right person or the right opportunity comes your way so that curse of lack can be broken and reversed. 

It's easy to give up. It's easy to let unbelief set in. It's easy to feel forgotten or overlooked when you are living in lack but I just want to encourage you by saying, don't give up. don't stop believing that that things can change for the better. Don't let lack muzzle you. Don't let lack cause you to believe that you have nothing to offer in this world because you do. 

So you're in a battle with lack. Fight back because because eventually...You'll win. 

It's ok if you don't want to get married

In four months I will be 32 and I am still single. For some it might be their worst nightmare but for me, I wouldn't have it any other way. While I was in deep thought in-regards to marriage for the past few nights, I realized something. Marriage isn't a priority for me. Matter of fact the idea of me getting married any time soon actually makes me nervous.

Nervous how?, Well first off, I haven't lived as single as I want to be. There's still so much that I want to do and experience single that I feel like if I were to get married I either wouldn't have the time or I would have to check in with my husband. Having a husband to check in with to do what I want to do isn't something I want right now.

I truly find it ironic that when I was a young girl watching Disney movies such as Snow White and Cinderella and thinking back then that having a man rescue me would be my portion. That having a man by my side increased my value as a woman some how. Such mentality remained with me until I finally realized that a man by side was a choice and not a requirement.

We live in society that often tries to tell us that being married is better than being single and I hate that. Granted that being single doesn't always feel great but I can honestly say that there are somethings about myself that I discovered being single that I don't think I would have discovered if I were married because I am truly the type who often lose themselves once in a relationship.

I'm not saying that I'll never get married, because I know that remaining permanently single isn't a desire of mine. I just do not like that there's this idea that being single cannot be a positive choice for one to make. It's how you live while being single that matters.

Job Requirements

It's been three months since I moved from my home state Massachusetts to Florida. I've applied to countless jobs, went to interviews only to get turned down. Granted that the only form of a degree that I have to my name is a high school diploma I don't believe that ought to be an issue. In this country we love to talk a lot about equality but being on the same side of those experiencing unemployment, it really made me realize that this country doesn't offer enough quality jobs for those who do not have a college education.

I really feel like what we need to crack down on in this country is what jobs ought to require a bachelor's degree and up and what jobs Simply require training. For instance I personally believe that if a company is looking for someone to promote their brand on social media, it shouldn't require a bachelor's degree to do so, if anything I feel as though one can be trained on how the company want's their brand promoted online and what they want the employee to analyze as far as what's the most effective way to promote the brand online.

Now I know that there are those of you who actually market a lot of brands online full-time and say well, Milca there's so much more to it, well if there is, I'm always open for correction but if I were to ask you now that you're in the position and thriving did a bachelor's degree really seem like requirement?

There are so many jobs out here that don't require a degree but only require common sense and the will to learn daily when you get to the job because even after you train it will always be up to you individually to make the best out the job that you are in.

This Walk

If someone were to ask me to describe my relationship with God, I would use the word complicated. I've always grown up around God. I grew up in church. When I was twenty-one, I got baptized. Eleven years later since getting baptized I'm still struggling when it comes to my walk with Christ. It's gotten so bad, that I've gotten to a point where I've stopped praying because I'm afraid of getting my hopes up about the things I've prayed for. 

What do you do when you've fasted and prayed and have read your bible and paid your tithes and yet you don't experience the outcome you thought you would get?

It's hard to go to church and to see certain people getting prophesied to and to see their needs getting met by God and to sit there and wonder if God could careless about you and your needs?

Even though my feelings are legitimate and I have the right to feel how I feel,  not too long ago I had to be honest about how I felt when it came to my spiritual life. I'm not always prompted to pick up my bible and read. Praying hasn't always been something I enjoyed doing. Feeding my spiritual life has always felt like it was job or a burden. It never felt natural. I guess that's why I always felt disappointed when I did, fast, pray or read the word and never got the outcome I desired. 

Again. complicated. 

I don't feel like I'm trying to walk away from God. 

I just feel like I have to let go of his hand while we walk.